2011 Angelic Guidance Reading
Well, when we were talking, you made the statement “so, you have two boys” and I replied, “Yes, my husband and my son.” You then said, “No, I mean two sons.” and I replied “No, I only have one son.” You very perplexed by this and even quietly said, “that is confusing because I very strongly see two boys for you.” I offered, in a morbid tongue-n-cheek fashion that is my nature, that I had experienced several miscarriages and maybe one of those was the boy you were seeing. You didn’t even bite or react to that horrible statement, but, as I wrote in my notes, simply replied, “No. I see two living boys in your life.” We moved on and had a lovely conversation afterwards and I remind myself of the advice you gave me daily – particularly about laying down my sword and not trying to save the world.
When we spoke, I was almost 45 years old, had been diagnosed in my late 30′s with something that boiled down to “toasted eggs” and after several miscarriages, failed IVF, and a lot of heartache, had given up trying to have a sibling for my son. The conversation we had completely left my mind until about 4 1/2 months later, after believing I was in the early menopause my doctors predicted, I took a pregnancy test. It was positive and I was devastated because I could not go through another miscarriage. The last one I had was so physically and emotionally draining. My husband was beside himself with upset knowing full well what lay ahead in the coming weeks waiting for the pregnancy to end spontaneously. Between my diagnosis and age, I had 140% chance of miscarrying. I actually called my doctor and tried to end the nightmare early, but she directed me to Planned Parenthood and being a 45 year old woman with good health insurance, I balked at the idea of cutting through protest lines to go sit in a clinic when I should be able to see my own doctor.
Long story shorter, I decided to go for an ultrasound to prove to my doctor that the embryo was not progressing normally as was the case in all other miscarriages. Instead of telling me to expect a call from my doctor, the ultrasound specialist turned the screen around to show me the healthy heartbeat of an embryo tracking at a full 4 days growth ahead of schedule. I cannot even tell you the wave that overcame me. I remembered what you said and I knew right then that a healthy, perfect little boy was on his way into our lives. We had an amnio several weeks later just to prove to my husband that it was true, but I already knew because you had told me.
My second son, just celebrated his first birthday on March 4 of this year. He is perfect, he is beautiful inside and out, and he has brought such joy and peace to our family (even in my relatively old age) that I cannot even express to you how life changing this has been for us.
I wanted you to know that I put my notes that I took from our conversation in the front of his his baby book, as I thought you might get a kick out it. I know he will when he is older. I guess none of this is really news to you though.
Be well and live your miracle.
Tracy Doe Heart